Contact info (Celia Joy Martins) celia@thefountainoflivingwaters.net
My name is Celia Joy. I once was called Cecilia (Blind) Jacoba (Supplanter) but Abba gave me new names. Since the 28th of July 2008 "I have been CRUCIFIED WITH Messiah YAHSHUA and it is not longer I who live, but Messiah lives IN me. The life I now live in the body I live by faith in the Son of Yah ... my Savior Who gave Himself up for me ... ” (Galatians 2:20) -
THIS IS MY TESTIMONY.
FREELY I RECEIVED ... FREELY I GIVE
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I was born and raised in South Africa, growing up in a traditional Afrikaans Christian home and environment ...now ... a citizen of Australia.
I was walking a path of TRADITIONAL, CHRISTIAN CULTURAL and DOGMATIC RELIGION - but I had a “LONGING” a "YEARNING" inside of me for something more that would not subside.
1989:
In n the year 1989 and in my twenties a God-send friend gave me a little booklet that explained SALVATION in three steps and IT CHANGED MY LIFE FOREVER.
With reading this little book, I realized that ...
although I knew the Bible,
although I knew my Savior,
although I was a serious church-goer ...
although I was raising our kids according to the Bible ...
It did not make me a true and genuine believer, an inheritor of His kingdom. I had to INVITE JESUS into my life.... I needed to walk in a COVENANT relationship with the King ... we ALL need to WALK in a COVENANT relationship with the King ...
YAHSHUA is HIS REAL NAME - HIS UNIQUE NAME:
We need to INVITE Him in by our own FREE WILL and in NEED of Him in our lives ... Jesus .. that I would years later come to KNOW as YAHSHUA ... when He took my salvation a STEP FURTHER and He made Himself REAL to me in a far and foreign country ... DOWN UNDER.
John 14:21 "The person who has My COMMANDS and KEEPS them is the one who really loves Me; and whoever REALLY LOVES Me will be LOVED by My Father, and I too will LOVE him and WILL SHOW, [REVEAL, MANIFEST] Myself to him. I will make MYSELF CLEARLY SEEN by him and make MYSELF REAL to him."
INTO MY LIFE. I had to MAKE THAT CHOICE out of my OWN FREE WILL.
I followed the steps in the little booklet:
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I invited Jesus into my life again, turned my back on sin and made the CHOICE to follow and serve Him. I gave myself body soul and spirit to Yahweh-Yahshua (Whom I at that stage knew as Jesus) .
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Then came the cleansing process – purification process - an ongoing process.
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I Accepted Yahshua as my Savior and Friend.
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I signed a Covenant with Abba and then I prayed the following prayer:
Yahshua, I, Celia, take You as me personal Savior. You Messiah are the Redeemer between God and man, and You now take my hand and put it in the hand of our heavenly Father and nobody will ever be able to snatch me out of Your grip. Lord, I accept and acknowledge that I belong to You, that I am Your child. I accept and acknowledge that You died for me on the cross and through Your death, I am saved. You paid the full price for my salvation. Thank You Lord Jesus that You will make Your home in me, and that I could make my home in You. Thank You, Lord, for Your love. Thank You, that I now belong to You forever and ever. Amen.
My COVENANT with God:
I spoke it out aloud into the atmosphere:
Father God, Yahshua and Holy Spirit, I, Celia, yield myself to You, completely, body, soul and spirit. I give You my ALL – my thoughts, my total being. Yah, I am Your instrument ... I am Your bondservant. I am bought and paid for and belong to You, Yahweh-Yahshua completely – now and forever.
Celia Martins (October 1989)
Although I did not feel different at first, I soon found that Scripture became alive and powerful as I read the Bible. Everything became new to me. The Word made its home in me, Yahweh's name was on my lips and I could pray with worship and adoration to the wonderful awesome Creator-God, to His Son, our wonderful Savior.
The old “longing” inside of me vanished as I was FILLED with the Holy Spirit. The loneliness was gone. I wanted more and more of HIM. Jesus became my Savior and Friend, my Rock and my Hiding Place, my awesome King.
Prayer changed to being one with Yahweh-Yahshua. I could not get enough of Him. I was slowly but surely planting my feet upon the Rock of Ages – I was born again!
The enemy of our souls is the MASTER – the ORIGINATOR OF TERRORIST WARFARE
Even as a child of God, the enemy of our souls and the fruits of his evil spirit sporadically surfaced every now and then in my life.
CHRISTIAN THEOLOGY DOES NOT INCLUDE SPIRITUAL WARFARE:
WE DO NOT KNOW HOW TO FIGHT:
Growing up in traditional Christianity, I knew nothing about spiritual warfare – the devil or his kingdom. My knowledge was so limited that I did not know HOW TO FIGHT the good fight. I was saved – reborn – but the devil still had access into my life. Doors (of generational sin) that were still open gave him legal right to still do his destructive work, but with my rebirth, and me signing the covenant, he went into hiding and in disguise (like the terrorists that was infiltrating our beautiful country (South Africa), leaving behind a path of total destruction) he was infiltrating and acting and playing his hellish games always when I least expected it. There were still powerful destructive elements in my life, things like un-forgiveness, anger, negative thinking and ancestral iniquities that I knew nothing about and of which I did not repent of.
The CRACKS in my SPIRITUAL WALL:
For years and years I had build my spiritual walls thinking that I am in right standing with Yahweh, but my wall was full of cracks and holes. Anything could creep through the holes and the ‘living waters’ coming in was draining and flowed away.
I NEEDED DELIVERANCE AND HEALING:
I needed spiritual healing and deliverance but I was did not know it. Worst of all, nobody I knew could help me, and mercifully it would be Yahweh-Yahshua Himself Who picked me up years later, in a foreign country, disclosing Himself to me, shook my foundations to the core, and started the cleaning up and restoration process Himself.
I was in a learning process, a spiritual heavenly school, where I was taught by Yahshua Himself and through His Holy Spirit what I should know to be useful in His kingdom.
SOUTH AFRICA:
In 1993 F.W. de Klerk (president of South Africa) was speeding ahead with his political reform in South Africa. Our beautiful homeland was in a full scale extreme terrorist warfare imposed on our country by the ANC (African National Congress) the CPSA (the Communist Party of South Africa) and the terrorist organization MK (Umkontho We Sizwe).
Other radical organizations (movements) attached to these three also played their hellish part with the rest of the Western World rejecting and pressuring us telling us that we were racists.
With Nelson Mandela (a terrorist) - already been released from prison in 1990 and all the radical parties un-banned, terrorists could enter freely and bombs exploded in shopping centers, banks, police station and even in shopping malls at holiday destinations.
Schools and churches were also targeted, the black squatter camps were on fire, the governmental black townships in chaos and full of ‘necklacing’ murders, and South Africa became a life-threatening country to live in. No one was safe anymore.
We had to live ‘normally’ in a country where you had to lock your vehicle’s doors the moment you enter it, where travelling by vehicle was dangerous, and you had to look over your shoulder wherever you go.
Motorists were stoned from bridges and highways, cars were high-jacked, the owners shot to death. Even normal errands such as buying groceries were dangerous as armed robbers would storm in, in the middle of the day to shoot you dead if you are in their way.
Innocent people had already been murdered by their hundreds. Security companies had risen, armed response a necessity, domestic security fencing and electrification of walls/fences a standard procedure. An ‘abnormal’ lifestyle had become the norm.
CHURCH ENLIGTENMENT
In the midst of all these happenings, the churches drifted into “enlightenment”. Throughout my life, our church denomination was an integral part of my everyday existence.
The Reform process of the ‘Christendom’ in South Africa started with the 1983 new translation of the Afrikaans Bible. In this new translation, all the so-called "errors" of the previous version they said were corrected. As a result, some verses just disappeared from the Bible. In many instances, the context changed to make it a ‘better’ translation to suit all - a "softer" version to ease the conscience.
Our church (NG Church – Dutch-German Reformed) had also drifted into this new-found enlightenment. Our older minister of faith made place for a young enlightened one, and then a third minister of faith was employed to tend to the needs of the youth.
The enlightenment theories were incorporated into the church so subtly that those who were in the church did not even question it. Old Testament teachings and the commandments of the Lord were not important anymore, and as a replacement of the Ten Commandments a new ‘universal’ teaching of ‘love’ was preached from the New Testament verses. It was as if everything was taken and covered in a ‘Jesus-sauce’ – the average Christians had become “New Testament Christians of the religion of Christianity”.
Things changed drastically in our church – our church building to become a universal theatre, with singers to sing mixtures of gospel and contemporary music in front of the pulpit. People sat in church with snacks and cold drinks watching, with intervals, when the lights went on and people rushing in and out while the singers were in the “dressing room” (the consistory).
Mimic stars were invited to perform mimic dances in ballet-gear, on a stage built especially for them in front of the pulpit to replace a sermon. All kinds of music instruments appeared in front of the pulpit with ‘lead’ singers who took the whole congregation ‘away’ in concert-like waves on the loud beatings of the drums.
Electronic display boards were erected inside the church making the bringing of Bibles and hymn books an unnecessary effort. Slogans on our church’ newsletters became blasphemous. God was brought down – making Him smaller while man had been lifted up to become all the bigger. A spirit of disrespect swept over our congregation.
DEPRESSION:
Although I was now walking in a personal relationship with the King, depression episodes were still part of my life. With our stress-full lifestyle in South Africa, and under duress, depression would take a while before it exploded like an ‘after-action stress-reaction’ when negative emotions would surface and hurl me into the pits of teary dark episodes.
In the year 2000, I was diagnosed with chronic depression and antidepressants were presribed.
In this Six years later in January 2006 we arrived in Australia. The move was more traumatic than I ever thought it would be. The complete unknowingness of the new country and its customs, the secular community, the change in weather, the winter’s rainfall and summer heat was extreme to what we were used to.
We joined a small local church founded by a group of immigrants from our homeland. It was operating in the traditional Reformed religion and in our mother tongue – we felt so privileged and thankful and we praised the Lord.
The first six week felt like holiday, but when our container arrived and the finality of our move kicked-in, I fell into depression again. I was still on medication but it was the longest episode I have ever experienced that lasted nearly two months. Although I was familiar with depression episodes, this time I was totally drained, wearied down and lost in my emotions in a deep dark pit of hopelessness.
The sickness straight out of hell tormented me periodically for such a long time, took hold of me again and kept me in its monstrous grip, again. For the first time since the year 2000 when I started to take medication, I was back in the grip of depression. My prayers would echo in my mind “Help me, Lord, please help me ... help me !” - I begged the Lord to take me home.
When the heaviness finally lifted I slowly regained my strength, but FEAR had set in - of another episode. Immediately I drew closer to God and it was then prompted by His Holy Spirit that I realized that “I” was still the most important factor in my life. “I” was seeking happiness, but the more “I” was seeking happiness, the more it was avoiding me. I gave my whole life again to the Lord and asked forgiveness of ‘SELF’ . I asked the Lord to let His light shine into the deepest darkest corners of my soul and disclose my past to me.
SELF DISCOVERY CRASH COURSE
The Lord took me on a self-discovery crash-course, and for the first time in my life I saw myself for what I was. A child of God but ruled by self. I had issues bottled up inside of me, relationship issues, anger issues, emotions of rejection, un-forgiveness issues, wrong attitudes, pride, wrong words, selfishness, stress, lots and lots of other issues, and I dragged it with me in a grip that I would not let go of.
I had to deal with all the issues (sin), each issue on its own, disclosing it, acknowledging it, repenting of it and asking forgiveness - With the help of the Lord, I went back into my past, Him disclosing everything, me repenting and asking forgiveness of everything - the restoration and healing process had begun.
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FACE-to-FACE
Two years later on the 29th of July 2008, I met the Lord Face to face. It was on a Sunday morning on our way to church that I cried out in my spirit to the Lord to heal me of the hell of depression. It was then that I heard the Lord’s voice audibly and I stood in ‘awe’ because of the greatness of the God we serve. It was as if I was floating on air, if I am not in the vehicle anymore. The next thing I know was that the love of the Lord surrounded me, saturated my whole being, and overwhelmed me totally. It was an indescribable experience and I felt so absolutely save in His Presence. It felt as if we were in a confined space, only Him and I, Face-to-face.
HEALED:
Like Job, the Lord and I conversed, and in the midst of the conversation that followed, the Lord healed me of depression instantly. From that day forward up to today (May 2015) I had never again fallen into a depressive state of despair, never again felt the grip of deep dark depression, hopelessness and worthlessness that were pulling me down taking me so deep into the blackness of despair. I was freed and saved from myself!.
THREE PROPHETIC MESSAGES:
In confirmation of my experience, the Lord gave me three prophetic messages for three specific persons who were all members of our church. None of the people for which the messages were meant was in church that morning, but the Lord put them divinely on my way through the week that followed, and all of them accepted it gracefully.
THERE IS MORE – BAPTIZED in the SPIRIT
The next day, early the Monday morning, while in prayer, I could feel the Lord’s tangible presence and in an extraordinary supernatural experience the Lord Jesus put “HIS MARK” (kissing me) on my forehead. I was in awe again – all my senses drinking in the Living Waters that was streaming from Him – I was changed forever - BAPTIZED in the SPIRIT.
The Lord talked to me again, and He told me that I would always remember this experience, that I would walk in ‘His Light’ and that I must lay down FEAR. (Is. 43:5 “Do not be afraid, for I am with you”)
He told me that I must always walk on His path – the path of Righteousness, spreading HIS WORD and TRUTH WITHOUT HESITATION. He also told me to be OBEDIENT to HIS VOICE and bestowed three gifts of the Spirit upon me - Praying in tongues – Discerning between spirits and Prophetic Word.
TO REALLY KNOW HIM
Because of my background of being a member of the traditional cultural Reformed Church denomination, I did not immediately understood what happened that morning, but the Lord Himself became my Teacher and I began to tread on a whole new path in KNOWING HIM INTIMATELY. Again I could not get enough of Him. He became my ALL and my EVERYTHING. I sat at His feet, soaked Him in, knowledge and understanding were imparted into my spirit so that I could truly and fully understood the love of the Father and the love of His Son. I could understand the full meaning of the Holy Spirit of God INSIDE OF ME - I could truly understand Scripture. Jesus made me His dwelling place.
The HORRIFICNESS of HIS DEATH and the WONDER of HIS RESURRECTION
For the first time in my life (52 years of age) I could really really understand what Jesus did for me on the hill of Golgotha and what His terrible suffering meant! I realized the full meaning of the horror of His death, and the awesomeness of His resurrection!. The staggering fact that Jesus conquered death to save me! I could make it my own and cling to it. He bought me with His own blood.
FULLNESS of the SPIRIT
I was on an awesome path, a brand-new deeper spiritual journey. The ‘fullness’ of the Spirit was new to me. It opened up a spiritual realm that I didn’t even know existed. God Himself was preparing me, emptying me of my ‘self’ filling me with Him, to make me ready to be useable in His kingdom.
PROPHETIC WARNING
Late September 2008, Father God gave me a prophetic word of warning for a group of seven people in the church I was member of. The same traditional cultural Reformed church where I was actively participating in the “core” as deacon, member of the Woman’s Committee, member of the Youth Committee, and member of the Sermon Committee.
They did not receive it well and attacked me personally in an angry rage, wanting to STONE the MESSENGER. I was hurled into a spiritual war. I was clinging to God, Who preserved me and lifted my spirit. I knew that the Lord would never lead me out of a ‘safe situation’ into a ‘spiritual battlefield’ unless He had a purpose.
I could rejoice in Him even in the midst of my agony of tribulation. The people of the church finally told me to cut my ties with the church – I was forced to leave – but I praised the Lord that He took me out of my ‘boxed religion’ and put my feet on the Rock. (Matt. 5:11-12 “Blessed ... are you when people revile (insult) you and persecute you and say all kinds of evil things against you falsely on My account. Be glad and supremely joyful for your reward in heaven is great, strong and intense, for this same way people persecuted the prophets who were before you.”)
EVERYTHING PASSES THROUGH HIM FIRST
I have learned that everything that happens to us PASSES THROUGH GOD FIRST, even what seems to be a tragedy (Job 1:6; 2:10). God takes us through it for our ultimate good and His Glory. Our tendency like Job’s is to want to give up and get out of any bad situation in our lives, fast! But we must remember that even in difficult situations, this is exactly where God wants us and what He wants for us (2 Cor. 12:9).
DON’T GIVE UP – REMEMBER GOD’S GRACE
Next time you want to give up, remember God’s grace, it will see you through your trial. And rather than praying that God will ‘end it all’ pray that God will ‘use it all’ for His Glory and your good. I have learned that you can’t worry AND trust Him at the same time.
SEEK FIRST HIS KINGDOM
We so often try to work out our own paths. We trust on ourselves and our own abilities to get things done and to provide for ourselves. We also tend to trust on other people who so often disappoint us.
Scripture tells us that God knows what we need and that we must first of all seek Him. In Matt. 6:33 Jesus Himself says, “But seek, aim at an strive after, first of all His kingdom and His righteousness, His way of doing and being right, and then all these things taken together will be given you besides.” Further on Jesus says, ‘Do not worry or be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will have worries and anxieties of its own. Sufficient for each day is its own trouble’.
REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE DEALING WITH
We need to remember that we are dealing with the KING of the UNIVERSE. Everything is ABOUT HIM. We have to ABSORB THIS STATEMENT AND MAKE IT OUR OWN. God is SOVEREIGN, OMNIPRESENT, ALL-SEEING, the CREATOR of ALL AND EVERYTHING. HE IS THE BEGINNING OF ALL AND THE END OF ALL, the GREAT I AM. GOD IS GOD, and we are His creation.
HIS DNA IS IN OUR VEINS
His will is what matters at all times, and it is for our good not our destruction. We are the instruments, the vessels, His ARMY on earth. We are not puppets, or robots, but HIS OWN UNIQUE CREATED CHILDREN, whom HE LOVES DEARLY AND PASSIONATELY. HIS DNA IS IN OUR VEINS. The ONLY THING He expects from us is OBEDIENCE.
REPENTANCE COMES BEFORE FORGIVENESS
I have learned that we have to REPENT and ASK FORGIVENESS of ALL our TRESPASSES and SINS, CALL IT BY NAME, UNTIL ALL IS TOLD. We have to START AT THE BEGINNIG, our beginning and our FOREFATHERS’ beginnings. Exodus 20:5 “You shall not worship them or serve them; for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, visiting the INIQUITY of the FATHERS ON THE CHILDREN, on the THIRD AND THE FOUTH GENERATIONS OF THOSE WHO HATE ME ...” Exodus 34:7 “...who keeps LOVINGKINDNESS for THOUSANDS, who FORGIVES INIQUITY, TRANSGRESSION AND SIN; yet, He will by NO MEANS LEAVE the GUILTY UNPUNISHED, VISITING the the INIQUITY of the FATHERS ON THE CHILDREN AND ON THE GRANCHILDREN TO THE THIRD AND FOURTH GENERATIONS. (Num. 14:18 – Deut. 5:9 – Job 21:19) Isaiah 14:21 “Prepare for his sons a place of slaughter Because of the INIQUITY of THEIR FATHERS. They must not arise and take possession of the earth and fill the face of the world with cities.” Isaiah 65:7 – “Both their own iniquities AND the iniquities of their fathers together ... I will MEASURE their FORMER WORK INTO THEIR BOSOM” (Isaiah 32:18 – Jer. 32:18 – Lam. 5:7 – Zech. 1:2 – John 9:2
Although Deut 24:16 says that “Fathers shall not be put to death for their sons, nor shall sons be put to death for their fathers; everyone shall be put to death for his own sin” it does not mean that the iniquity of the fathers do not have an effect on us today. It is STILL an open door – a LEGAL RIGHT GIVING the ENEMY and his AGENTS the LEGAL RIGHT to TORMENT us – making our LIVES MISERABLE, hindering us to live in FULLNESS. The enemy will USE ANY SITUATION to BRING US DOWN if there is a LEGAL RIGHT or NOT. When there is NO LEGAL RIGHT for him to do what he is doing, HE HAS TO FLEE and LEAVE US ALONE (for a while).
DON'T IGNORE GENERATIONAL SIN
This generational sins must NOT BE IGNORED. It can be used by the enemy in HINDERING A FULL CONVERSION – BLINDING PEOPLE in not SEEING the TRUTH of the WORD OF GOD – DECEIVING people into BONDAGES of TRADITION and RELIGION – etc. EACH SIN should be repented of by name, and not as a generality such as ‘forgive all my sins’ – to be able to leave the enemy NO FOOTHOLD.
The ENEMY
I have learned that the Bible tells us that Satan is the ultimate “ACCUSER” and he is accusing us day and night before the Father. (Rev. 12:10) The Bible also tells us that Satan is the SEDUCER (A MASTER PERSUADER) and DECEIVER (a MASTER CON ARTIST – LIAR – FRAUD and CHEAT) of ALL HUMANITY the WORLD OVER. Rev. 12:7-12 “Then WAR BROKE OUT IN HEAVEN; ... and the AGE-OLD SERPENT, who is CALLED the Devil and Satan, he who is the SEDUCER (DECEIVER) of ALL MANKIND the WORLD OVER; HE WAS FORCED OUT AND DOWN TO THE EARTH, and HIS ANGELS WERE FLUNG OUT WITH HIM.”
The enemy’s AIM is for us to QUESTION GOD’S WILL, and he will ALWAYS USE OUR BODIES to DESTROY AND BRING SUFFERING. With SUFFERING ILNESSES, he will TRY TO GET US AWAY FROM GOD AND to STEAL OUR JOY. Satan, as the DECEIVER IS ALWAYS also TARGETING OUR MINDS. Our THINKING PATTERN MAKES or BREAKS US. The INJECTION of LIES INTO OUR MINDS MAKES US to THINK the THOUGHTS ARE OUR OWN.
SATAN’S PLAYGROUND – HIDDEN SIN
Satan’s PLAYGROUND is the ‘CHRISTIANS’ who are or were involved (or ancestors that were) in the OCCULT, WITCHCRAFT, FREEMASONRY, GNOSTICISM, SCIENTOLOGY, BROTHERHOODS, NEW AGE MOVEMENTS, EVOLUTION THORIES, MAGIC, SPIRITSM, and or ANY FALSE RELIGION or PRACTICE.
EVIL INFLUENCES like PRIDE, SELFISHNESS, IDOLATRY, NAZISM, HATE, ADULTERY, PERVERSITY, HOMOSEXUALITY – GENDERISM etc. are DOORS WIDE OPEN to the ENEMY of our SOULS for OUR DESTRUCTION.
In Ps. 32:5 king David ADMITTED his SIN and he CONFESSED his iniquities UNFOLDING HIS PAST TILL ALL WAS TOLD which ENABLED the LORD TO FORGIVE him. “I acknowledged my sin to You, and my iniquity I did not hide. I said, I will CONFESS my TRANSGRESSIONS to the Lord [CONTINUALLY UNFOLDING the PAST TILL ALL IS TOLD] – then You [INSTANTLY] FORGAVE ME the GUILT and INIQUITY of my SIN.”
STRONGHOLDS
With repentance of ALL our SINS (generational as well) we have to SHUT the DOOR CLOSE – REJECT it – RENOUNCE it and SEAL the CLOSED DOOR with the BLOOD of the LAMB. Many times a sin CHANGED into STRONGHOLDS like pornography – alcoholism – disobedience – rebellion – slandering – bitterness etc. THESE STRONGHOLDS are not EASILY BREAKDOWNABLE and CAN NOT EASILY be DEALT with. It has to be BROKEN DOWN with REPENTANCE PRAYERS AND FASTING for the Lord to ENABLE US TO LIVE ACCORDING to His will and to be SET FREE from our addiction.
A REBORN CHRISTIAN
The moment we are a reborn child of God – He sends His Holy Spirit to LIVE IN US. It is HIS SPIRIT that CONVICTS US OF SIN – it is Him warning us when we just KNOW THAT SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT. It is HIS CONVICTION we feel when we did something that was not from the Lord, and we just KNOW that what we did was sinful. Holy Spirit is our Navigator, our Leader and our Comforter.
To be reborn means to be CONTINUALLY SEEKING the Lord IN EVERYTHING and ALL THINGS WE DO. We MUST LEARN to LISTEN to HIS VOICE (HIS WORD) and BE OBEDIENT – and we must REPENT AND SEEK FORGIVENESS THE MOMENT the HOLY SPIRIT CONVICTS us.
John 3:3 ‘Jesus answered, I assure you, most solemnly I tell you, that unless a person is BORN AGAIN, ANEW FROM ABOVE, HE CANNOT EVER SEE, KNOW, be ACQUAINTED with and EXPERIENCE the KINGDOM OF GOD.’
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EVEN WHEN BORN AGAIN we are not FREE from the ONSLAUGHT of the ENEMY. If there is sin, ANY SIN (anger, strife, price etc.) Satan and his hordes will go in hiding to surface every now and then through that open door of sin.
An example is the sin of baby dedication (baptism) in the Catholic Church. Maybe you grew up in the Catholic faith, have been reborn, and you are now a true believer of Christ, but you DID NOT KNOW that with Catholic baby dedication, you were dedicated to a “saint”. Actually you were dedicated to a dead person who holds no power, but because of the Catholic tradition and the saint that is dead, a FALSE SPIRIT TOOK the PLACE of the “saint” PRETENDING to be the saint. Many Catholic people even received the name of the saint who is now an evil spirit to be reckoned with and answer to that name. You were thus actually dedicated to an EVIL SPIRIT who has access into your life to KILL STEAL AND DESTROY. If you are one of these Catholic people please REPENT OF IT – REJECT IT AND RENOUNCE IT AND CLOSE THE DOOR SHUT SEALING it WITH THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB in JESUS’ NAME.
SATAN WILL USE OUR LOVED ONES WHEN WE LEAST EXPECT IT
In MANY INSTANCES the DESTROYER WILL USE OUR LOVED ONES to AFFLICT us. Being a true born-again believer will not stop him, therefore we should ALWAYS be ON GUARD – always ready to PUT ON THE SPIRITUAL ARMOR, always ready to STAND FIRM our EYES ON OUR LORD JESUS – and ALWAYS ACT IN LOVE. 1 Cor. 16:13-14 “Be ALERT and ON GUARD; STAND FIRM IN FAITH. Let everything you do be done in love [true love to God and man as inspired by God’s love for us”.]
Our sinful nature and the voice of the enemy would LOVE to MISLEAD us, in rejecting these spiritual things so that the enemy would not be found out – we rejecting it and be set free.
OBEDIENCE
When I met the Lord Face to face in 2008, one of the keys He gave me was to always be OBEDIENT. The Bible tells us that DISOBEDIENCE is as the SIN of WITCHCRAFT to the Lord and STUBBORNNESS as IDOLATRY and household good-luck images.
We read in 1 Sam. 15 that Saul was originally ANOINTED by Samuel as the PRINCE over the LORD’S HERITAGE, but he was DISOBEDIENT to the WORD OF THE LORD (in UNBELIEF). He HAD EVERYTHING IN HIS FAVOUR – he was KING AND THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD DWELLED in him, but he THREW IT ALL AWAY with his DISOBEDIENCE. THEN the SPIRIT OF THE LORD LEFT HIM. 1 Sam. 15:22-23 “Samuel said, has the Lord as great a delight in BURNT OFFERINGS AND SACRIFICES AS IN OBEYING THE WORD OF THE LORD? Behold, to OBEY is BETTER than sacrifice. For REBELLION IS AS SIN OF WITCHCRAFT, and STUBBORNNESS is as IDOLATRY, and TERAPHIM [household good luck images.] Because you have REJECTED the WORD OF THE LORD, HE ALSO HAS REJECTED YOU FROM BEING KING.”
OUR LIVES ARE IN THE FATHER'S HANDS
I have learned that our LIVES ARE IN THE HANDS OF THE FATHER, JESUS IS OUR ADVOCATE, OUR HEALER, OUR PRINCE OF PEACE. HOLY SPIRIT IS OUR GUIDE, our TEACHER. We have to TRUST the LORD with our LIVES, LOVE HIM WHOLEHEARTEDLY for HE LOVES US FIRST. We SHOULD NEVER LOOSE FAITH, and NEVER GIVE UP.
Although I hold a Bachelor’s degree in Biblical Studies and Ministry, I came to realize that Theological knowledge does not mean much if it remains only head-knowledge. The DESIRE to KNOW the Lord must come from the HEART and it is only when KNOWLEDGE (the WORD) and HEART MEET and BECOME ONE with the HOLY SPIRIT of God that we will experience an intimacy with the KING.
Ever since my supernatural impartation of His Spirit, Him being my King and Master of my life, I lived a life trying to be worthy of Him – running a small internet Ministry from home with daily (weekdays) pieces “To Ponder On.”
A PROPHETIC ANOINTING AND SPIRITUAL WARFARE
Jesus steered me into a Prophetic and Spiritual Warfare realm – and with it comes many attacks as the enemy of our souls would love to destroy mankind – me as well. I went through severe attacks of the enemy trying to stop my Ministry and destroy me, especially when I was urged to write a Book regarding my people in South Africa and the severe farm murders that are still taking place ever since Nelson Mandela and his ANC (African National Congress) took government.
As I was calling out to the Lord for answers regarding the situation in my beloved country of birth and the horrors of the torturing horrific murders the people of South Africa and especially the Afrikaans speaking farmers (boere) were going through. To date more than 19 000 farmers had been tortured, raped, hacked, burnt and axed to death since the ANC took control in 1994.
I spent three years researching and writing the Book (2012-2015), Fire and Ashes, Iron and Clay, and it drained and shocked me as it was intense and totally overwhelmingly shocking to realize what is really going on in South Africa.
The Book was published together with a “Devotionals to Ponder On” Book in 2015. During the time of research and writing, the Lord taught me intensely about spiritual warfare – how to recognize the enemy – the attacks and also how people’s words (‘death’-words) can activate an attack when it is picked-up in the spirit-realm.
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Through the fire - 11 June
2017 - 4 October 2017
Abba was preparing me for what was to come - the worst winter of physical and spiritual SUFFERING in my entire life -
When I went through severe trials starting September 2016 - I cried to Abba SEEKING HIS FACE in PRAYER and FASTING and He said to me "You KNOW My child that I can INTERVINE IN ANY SITUATION - but I AM NOT GOING TO - FOR if I DO INTERVINE you HAVE NOT LEARNED ANYTHING ..." I did not understand ...
He also said to me that I have to LOOK AT JOB. Previously in February 2016 Abba gave me Scripture - Zech. 13:9 "And I will BRING you through the FIRE, and I WILL REFINE YOU as SILVER is REFINED and I WILL TEST you as GOLD is TESTED. You will CALL ON MY NAME, and I WILL HEAR and ANSWER you. I WILL SAY YOU ARE MINE and you will say, ELOHIM YAHWEH IS MY GOD."
11 JUNE - 4 OCTOBER 2017:
Starting noon ... 11 June 2017 ... for three and a half months I was bombarded with unexplained infirmities and ailments that started with DIZZINESS and NAUSIA and a total unexplained feeling of ill-health in my body.
I experienced LOSS OF APPETITE - FEELING "FULL" the WHOLE TIME triggering excessive LOSS IN WEIGHT. When I ate something I experienced HEARTBURN. I was tormented with severe INSOMNIA for weeks on end and with INSOMNIA in full swing - the enemy made his next move in sowing DOUBT INTO MY MIND - telling me my MINISTRY WAS FALSE.
When accepting DOUBT - a DOOR was OPENED:
The moment when I TOOK DOUBT and started to think about it - I opened a door for the enemy to come in and do his evil work. I was bombarded with LIES.
Come SIT with Me in Holy Communion:
I was seeking answers in prayer for what was happening to me - On a Sabbath day (Saturday) - YAHSHUA told me to sit with Him in Holy Communion. I immediately obeyed, and I was eating and drinking of HIM in HOLY COMMUNION IN HIS PRESENCE - making myself full of HIM - then when I (we) were finished YAHSHUA TOLD ME HE LOVES ME. I told Him that I LOVE HIM TOO. I did not realize that He would give me over to be tested for MY GOOD and HIS GLORY.
SLEEP DEPRIVATION
With INSOMNIA lasting weeks on end, I was so sleep deprived that I could not think straight anymore. The moment I dozed off, I would be WOKEN - my HEART POUNDING with the FEELING of FALLING INTO A DEEP BOTTOMLESS PIT.
TORTURE CHAMBER:
One morning while still in bed (our bedroom had become a torture chamber) - realizing that there was going on more than the eye could see, I heard myself (in my mind) say: "Who are you and what do you want?" A voice answer immediately telling me that he was Abaddon!
With my heart pounding I heard him saying that I was WITH him in the BOTTOMLESS PIT and that I can pray all I like - Father will not hear me anymore for Abba has given me over to him because I am false and my Ministry is false and he is going to EXPOSE me for the &^%$$ that I am. He told me that he is also going to take me and my entire family out and that it is all because of me. I immediately stood up grabbing my Bible and turned to Revelations 9.
The BOTTOMLESS PIT and its KING:
:1 "Then the fifth angel blew [his] trumpet, and I saw a star that had FALLEN FROM the SKY to the EARTH; and to the ANGEL WAS GIVEN the KEY of the SHAFT of the ABYSS (the bottomless pit).
:2 He opened the long shaft of the Abyss (the bottomless pit) and smoke like the smoke of a huge furnace puffed out of the long shaft, so that the sun and the atmosphere were darkened by the smoke from the long shaft.
:3 Then out of the smoke LOCUSTS CAME FORTH ON THE EARTH, and such POWER WAS GRANTED THEM as the power the earth's SCORPIONES have.
:4 They were TOLD NOT TO INJURE the HERBAGE of the EARTH NOR ANY GREEN THING NOR ANY TREE, but ONLY [TO ATTACK] SUCH HUMAN BEINGS AS DO NOT HAVE THE SEAL [MARK] OF GOD ON THEIR FOREHEADS.
:5 They were NOT PERMITTED TO KILL THEM, but TO TORMENT (DISTRESS, VEX) them for FIVE MONTHS; and the PAIN CAUSED THEM WAS LIKE THE TORTURE OF A SCORPION WHEN IT STINGS A PERSON.
:6 And in those days, people will SEEK DEATH and WILL NOT FIND IT, and they WILL YEARN TO DIE, BUT DEATH EVADES AND FLEES FROM THEM.
:7 The LOCUSTS RESEMBLED HORSES EQUIPPED FOR BATTLE. On their HEAD WAS SOMETHING LIKE GOLDEN CROWNS. Their FACES RESEMBLED the FACES OF PEOPLE.
:8 They HAD HAIR LIKE THE HAIR OF WOMEN, and their TEETH WERE LIKE LION'S TEETH.
:9 Their BREASTPLATES (SCALES) RESEMBLED BREASTPLATES MADE OF IRON, and the [WHIRRING] NOICE MADE BY THEIR WINGS WAS LIKE THE ROAR OF A VAST NUMBER OF HORSE-DRAWN CHARIOTS GOINT AT FULL SPEED INTO BATTLE.
:10 They have TAILS LIKE SCORPIONS, and they HAVE STINGS, and IN THEIR TAILS LIES THEIR ABILITY TO HURT MEN FOR [the] FIVE MONTHS.
:11 OVER THEM as KING THEY HAVE THE ANGEL OF THE ABYSS (OF THE BOTTOMLESS PIT). In HEBREW his NAME IS ABADDON (DESTRUCTION- the ANGEL OF DEATH), but in GREEK HE IS CALLED AOLLYON (DESTROYER).
When I read this Scripture I was in distress, I fell on my face before Abba, covering my eyes - crying out to Him for help and for forgiving me for my false ministry - repenting of things I thought I must repent again - reminding Him that Yahshua Himself said in Mark 3:28 that ALL SINS WILL BE FORGIVEN the children of MAN except the sin against the Holy Spirit. After about an hour, I heard a voice telling me in a harsh way "Your sins are forgiven, go sin no more!".
CONFUSION SETS IN:
I could not come to grip with this, it was totally different from the way Yahshua usually speaks to me. NOW I WAS TOTALLY CONFUSED - my heart was broken - my LIGHT HAS DIMMED and would in time totally goes out.
The enemy FOCUSED ON TORMENTING ME:
At this stage I had been already taken to hospital twice. The first time they discharged me from emergency without admitting me into the hospital itself. They did all tests and could not find anything wrong except that my thyroid seemed to be overactive. My file indicated that I was ANOREXIC.
The second time I was admitted because of my deterioration, they admitted me into a hospital bed after all bodily function - organs etc. were tested in the emergency section - where they still could not find anything wrong. In the hospital itself they did a MIR and I was discharged the next day.
The ENEMY MOVED IN:
For weeks now I was deteriorating daily. In the midst of winter my body was ICE-COLD. My FEET was so terribly cold that I HAD TO WARM it UP WITH HOT WATER just to be COLD AGAIN after a little while. In bed with three or four blankets/duvets over me I still could not get warm enough, my entire body to feel cold to the touch.
EXCESSIVE SWEATING:
Although I was cold the whole time, I started to sweat at night - lying in poodles of water - having to get up and dress in clean pajamas again and again. Every little food I could consume was sweated out at night! I was still losing weight.
I FELT CURSED:
My body and everything I touch seemed to be cursed. I had constant PAIN IN MY BODY - MUSCLE PAIN - PAINFUL AND BLEEDING HEMMORHOIDS - THYROID PROBLEMS - EXCESSIVE HAIR-LOSS and suffered severe DEHYDRATION because of the heavy sweating at night. I was so underweight that to lay down was painful - to sit was painful - I cried out to Yahshua only to find that swearwords - words that are not even in my vocabulary - would fill my mind.
Everything IN OUR HOUSE IS CURSED:
My laptop:
My email addresses were flooded with SPAM. I have three email addresses each to receive between 100 and 200 spam emails per day.
Our Microwave:
The food in the microwave would keep on sizzling while the door is open - the food to be overcooked.
Our Parrots suffered too:
Kakariki
Our parrots - especially the one small parrot started to scratch all the food out of their food container the moment I fill it up and keeps on doing it so the house is a mess the whole time. When out of their cage, he would flew to me attacking me in a rage.
Gallah:
Our pink and grey parrot became 'sick' his stools to be bloodied. His feet to have 'growths' on it letting him suffer on his perch on one foot then the other. When we decided to take him to the vet, ALL of the GROWTHS on his feet DISSAPEARED BEFORE MY EYES, and the vet could find nothing wrong with him - everything regarding him tested 'normal'.
All kinds of strange things happened in and around our house:
Furniture and blinds inside and out would move or swing -
An ICE COLD BREEZE would follow me -
Our bedroom was ICE COLD -
Our garden was as if it was turbo boosted in growth.
Our grass was deteriorating -
Our vine, lemon tree and fig tree became infected with diseases.
TIME CURSES:
The honey eaters became a nuisance - swarmed in at night and around our house making their bird noises every night a few times almost as if they were uttering curses around 9 o'clock (at night) 1 o'clock and 3 o'clock (early morning).
I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT YAHSHUA:
The very thought and the experience to be WITHOUT YAHWEH - is UNTOLERABLE - it felt as if I was already in hell. Nothing mattered anymore and life became a burden to me.
I WAS STILL DETERIORATING:
For the third time I was admitted to hospital on the 15th of September 2017. This time it was catastrophic from the start. Before I was admitted I could hear the voice in the spiritual realm (my spiritual senses were flung open) proclaiming that they "NEED MORE BLOOD".
When I was admitted into the emergency section: my blood was drawn for tests, but in a harsh and cruel way - they pierced my vine and ripped it open so that my blood was spilled all over. They put the Intravenous access into my ripped vein with blood coming out the whole time and plastered it in a very painful way.
I KNOW now, that when this happened, Abba must have said to the enemy "THIS IS NOW ENOUGH" for I passed out, my 'self' was taken out of the way for our KING to STRENGHTEN me and MINISTER to me and when I came too, my body was feeling better, I could eat again - my appetite was back!
We should have gone home but instead the enemy was trying one last time - I was admitted into the "CLINICAL" ward - a satanic nest - telling me that this was my "PERMANENT ROOM". in a room with a patient with DEMENTIA .
There in hospital Father opened up my eyes so that I could RECOGNIZE the ENEMY for what HE WAS - also to RECOGNIZE HIS AGENTS - both SPIRITUAL AND HUMAN - FATHER SUSTAINED ME throughout the process they tried to wear me down, to take me out, and when I was begging my husband to take me home he arranged my discharge the next day, and my HEALING had ALREADY STARTED.
YAHSHUA TAUGHT ME the POWER OF HIS NAME - the POWER OF HIS BLOOD - that ALL AUTHORITY AND POWER HAS BEEN GIVEN to US to DEFEAT the ENEMY.
He TAUGHT ME TO PRAY - to WARFARE - to RECOGNIZE the OPENED DOORS IN OUR LIVES and to CLOSE IT AGAIN - SEALING IT WITH THE BLOOD of the LAMB.
HE TAUGHT ME to CLOTHE MYSELF DAILY WITH THE ARMOR - WHO IS YAHSHUA -
TO STAY IN HIS WORD - to STAY IN TRUTH - not TRADITIONAL TRUTH or RELIGION'S TRUTH - no - the TRUTH OF and IN HIS WORD.
He TAUGHT ME to RECOGNIZE the HUMAN FACTOR USED by the ENEMY - to KILL STEAL AND DESTROY. HE TAUGHT me to FIGHT the GOOD FIGHT of FAITH.
HE TAUGHT ME to RECOGNIZE the SICKENESSES - AILMENTS - INFIRMITIES that COMES FROM SPIRITUAL OPPRESSION - STRONGHOLDS of the enemy in our LIVES. HOW TO ADMIT IT AND REPENT OF IT and to BE SET FREE.
ABBA BLESSED ME with WORD HE GAVE ME on the 9th of August 2016 - reaffirming it again on the 6th of October 2017:
"COME BACK CELIA DEAREST ONE AND INTO MY PERFECT WILL AND FINISH the TASK I HAVE ASSIGNED you. COME CLOSE TO ME and I WILL MINISTER TO YOU AND REVIVE YOUR SPIRIT. I BRING YOU OUT of the DEATH AND DARKNESS where you were - INTO LIVING REALITY again - out of the TRADITIONS of the PAST INTO FRESH REVELATIONS OF MYSELF IN THIS PRESENT HOUR."
ABOUT MY MINISTRY:
ABBA ALSO BLESSED me with 1 Tim. 4:14 "Do NOT NEGLECT the GIFT WHICH IS IN YOU (that special ENDOWMENT) which was DIRECTLY IMPARTED TO YOU [by the HOLY SPIRIT] ... :15 PRACTICE AND CULTIVATE AND MEDITATE UPON THESE DUTIES, THROW YOURSELF WHOLLY INTO THEM [AS YOUR MINISTRY] ... :16 LOOK WELL to YOURSELF AND TO YOUR TEACHING. PERSEVERE in THESE THINGS [HOLD TO THEM] ..."
He RE-AFFIRMED a MESSAGE He gave me September 2008 "YOUR LIFE IS IN MY HAND, CELIA - I AM YOUR ADVOCATE, YOUR HEALER, YOUR PRINCE OF PEACE. TRUST ME WITH YOUR LIFE - LOVE ME WHOLEHEARTEDLY - FOR I LOVED YOU FIRST!. DON'T LOOSE FAITH and DON'T EVER GIVE UP!"
Luke 9:1 "Then YAHSHUA called TOGETHER the 12 apostles and GAVE THEM POWER AND AUTHORITY OVER ALL DEMONS and TO CURE DISEASES."
I can say with EVERYTHING IN ME that YAH IS MY STRENGTH - MY ROCK - MY LIGHT and the WAY. HE IS the COMING KING - HE IS MY and YOUR BRIDEGROOM - OUR KING.
Dearly beloved, I pray an open heaven above you and the grace of Yah and His anointing Oil, Yahshua Messiah Himself to FLOW from His throne of grace and through you. May His Word and the Lord Himself make Him anew real to you in a mighty way. May He give you strength, peace and contentment and may the King of kings be with Your spirit.
I love you all
Heavenly (Celia) Joy Martins